If fans haven’t heard much from Liam Payne since he slammed One Direction and claimed the band was founded around him, it’s because he hasn’t been out much. He has now admitted that he suffered from major depression as a result of the fan backlash he received following a recent interview about the band and how he feels about his former bandmates.

Liam first made headlines in June when he made some daring remarks on Logan Paul’s “Impaulsive” podcast. He claimed that the group was formed around him, which prompted “The X Factor” to disprove his claim with video evidence.

For the first time, the show aired behind-the-scenes footage of the panel debating the male contestants, with Nicole Scherzinger proposing that some of them form a supergroup and naming Niall Horan as the first contestant. Liam also slammed Zayn, the group’s first ex-member, calling him an s— and citing “many reasons” for his dislike.

He claimed one of the guys slammed him into a wall, and he and Louis Tomlinson despised each other when they were in 1D together. Fans reacted negatively to his claims that the band was built around him and that his first solo single outsold all of the other members’ debuts.

Liam revealed to his fans on Instagram Stories on Saturday that “things became extremely dark” for him as a result of the abuse he received, and he didn’t leave the house for three months.

When Liam was watching the World Cup and his team was struggling, he tweeted a short video of himself, writing:

“Patiently waiting for the blame and ‘I blocked Liam’ trend on Twitter if England loses.”

He then went deep after one of his fans tweeted about his video and said she hated that she laughed, adding, “u won liam payne.” He thanked her and then opened up about how difficult it was for him to see his supporters turn against him.

He wrote over a photo of himself that his fans should know he’s sorry for everything. He went on to say that he adores his guys and that he didn’t know what was wrong with him other than he had a problem with himself and took it out on everyone else.

He said he’s never had a bigger chip on his shoulder and is overjoyed to be rid of it.

He concluded by expressing his hope that his fans would forgive him while admitting that he has been able to chuckle at the jokes and memes created in response to it, urging them to “keep em coming.”